MIGHT BE Goodbye...(Updated)

After this week, I will no longer have internet....So, this is goodbye, I'm so sorry I'll never see you all again...Cause I will most likely not be alive after the end of this week....

EDIT: I wish I could say I was joking, but I've been that depressed before...Though, I don't wanna hurt anyone else, I've already hurt my mother enough...According to her...And memory...I don't wanna hurt anyone else...So, if only for that reason, so I don't hurt you guys, I'll keep chugging.

I'm going to TRY and compromise with them, the whole reason is because I'm..Well, still unemployed, and I can admit that maybe it's because I'm not bugging the places I've applied to enough, but I'm afraid of bugging them too much and I don't know how much is the right amount...

Anyway, there's not guarantee it'll work, but if it does I WILL be limited on when I get on and how long...I DO need to get offline...Well, I need to limit my time, and I'm hoping that if the compromise does work, that I can stick to it.

NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!! Why won't you have internet? You don't have a starbucks or libary near?

You won't be getting it back?

Kizo, you will be alive at the end of this week. If you do what I think you're talking about, you'll be hurting a lot of people. I know you're not like that. I don't want to lose any more friends... so stay strong! Please!

oh wait i didn't even notice that second part o.o You wouldn't do something like that? no way...

Kizo!? Wait. Can you at least pass by the library every once in a while to wave?? Seriously...

Lectured...I'm still here...For now anyway x.x

@Ulqui: I've been that depressed before, and without people to look forward to talking to...I'll be heavily tempted *sigh*

Mugetsu wrote:

Kizo, you will be alive at the end of this week. If you do what I think you're talking about, you'll be hurting a lot of people. I know you're not like that. I don't want to lose any more friends... so stay strong! Please!

Alright, relax, I promise I'll keep chugging, I don't wanna hurt anyone else...Though, I don't know how we'll be able to keep talking if I do loose it...And I say if because I'm hoping I can compromise with them, but that'll mean loosing lots of time here...But, I DO need to stop...Hanging online when I know there's not much to do...Problem is, I don't know how to balance having fun and being serious...My dad wants me to be like him, and not know how to relax and have fun, but I don't wanna be that guy...I wanna balance it, but I don't know how..

And I don't know if the compromise will work...

Honestly, I don't know how you guys with actual lives manage to still find time to have fun, I wish I knew how to do that..

nycboyLC wrote:

Kizo!? Wait. Can you at least pass by the library every once in a while to wave?? Seriously...

No, not unless I work there...But, there are other networks in the area...Problem is idk if they all need a password or not..

Be like one of those random people they have at libraries who restock books or, if you are successful in getting in college like you want, you'll have time then. Just don't leave us totally if you can D:

Good. Sorry, but that just put me really on edge how you posted that and then logged right off. n.n I would try to give advice, but I fail at it...

Good, i also need to look for a job, but i get nervous when it comes to calling them.

nycboyLC wrote:

Be like one of those random people they have at libraries who restock books or, if you are successful in getting in college like you want, you'll have time then. Just don't leave us totally if you can D:

Job corp is the only thing close I might be able to get into soon... And still no luck...I'm gonna try again tomorrow and finish the talk but...No promises...Though, I'll figure out something...

Mugetsu wrote:

Good. Sorry, but that just put me really on edge how you posted that and then logged right off. n.n I would try to give advice, but I fail at it...

I know, I'm sorry about that, I was getting the butt lectured out of me..And I was pissed..Still am pissed but getting number...Idk what the hell I'll do..I need to go someplace where there's a buttload of work..

J_Azreal wrote:

Good, i also need to look for a job, but i get nervous when it comes to calling them.

I just don't know how to deal with people..

I still don't have a job in Barrie. The place I was entirely sure would hire me didn't... now I have to start looking again. Even with experience, it's really tough to find a job in this economy.

Especially when you have to compete with adults. -,-

Yeah. Dx Filthy bastards should be getting real jobs instead of taking up the jobs in the food industry, which are clearly geared towards young adults. -.-

Obviously e.e

Well, I may have found a solution, I'll make sure it's concrete before getting too hopeful but apparently the second main issue was making sure I wasn't on the comp late at night, so as long as they can make sure I can't do that than I should, HOPEFULLY, be able to keep the net.